Is that awful to say? I know we're not meant to wish our lives away, but sometimes it's really, really nice to. Just for a little while.
Like when you're implementing yet another 'sleep plan' to kick off a brand new school year. Rock hard work... so brutal. I honestly feel like someone came along and ripped all the emotional stability out of my body and I'm teetering. So tired, so exhausted, so wishing it was over, over, over.
And look, oh look, the first week of a new school year to get through too. What should be a joyful time as the Badoo clomps off to school today in her brand new school shoes and her brand new gleaming socks, is just fraught. I can't deny it. I am so wired right now that all I can see is the hard bits and the raw edges and the worry, worry, worry.
Negativity like this doesn't sit well with me and so there is that to consider as well - the sheer panic as I worry why Pollyanna has left the building. Where is sweet Pollyanna when I need her? I want her back!
Still, this week I'm grateful for...
320. Time passing - sad, but true. I want to fast-forward a few weeks. Just a few.
321. Yarns - those lovely long tales that people like to tell that roll on like generations colliding.
322. Sharpies - yep, the permanent markers. I reckon I use one every single day.
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I try to stay in the moment, but when things get hard/stressful I think it doesn't hurt to visualise yourself on the other side of those times! That's what I do xx
Hugs my friend. Exhaustion is a insidious enemy to battle :(
But .... zzzzzzzppppp - that's the sound of me fast forwarding the next couple of weeks for you :)
I think its just fine to wish time away, as long as it's only a week or two and not a whole year. that's probably pushing it a little.
hoping time passes fast for you for a bit.
and i love my sharpies (i have quite a collection) so draw with those and distract yourself a bit xx
I wouldn't mind fast forwarding a few weeks myself. And I do love a good sharpie. Especially the small ones. I got the 80's glam pack at my teacher shower and I adore them.
:-(
There are times when I wouldn't mind fast forwarding certain moments. Sometimes I wish "Popette" who talks non-stop (as a 4 year old does), was trotting off to school, but then I think about all the fun we have and it saddens me to think it'll be here all too soon and that I should enjoy the time we have together.
xx
Oh time is a bitch. Won't slow down when you need her to, but won't hurry up over the painful parts.
My time passer is turning on some music really loudly and cleaning house like a mofo. It's only good to pass the bulk of a day, and it doesn't help the night when I should be sleeping. It also doesn't help the next day because everything is still clean from the day before!
Before you know it those few weeks will have passed and the routine will be well established, hang in there.
I have used a sharpie every day this week too - love them!
Time is so weird. I feel like it passes both too slowly and too quickly for me at the moment if that's even possible. I'm terrified of the years that are rushing past me but oh the days are so long sometimes. Hope next week is better.
Oh Bron, breathe deeply! All will be good once you a have a little school routine re-established. I came home from work last night to find all three children asleep in the same bed and so all of them were awake at 5.05am this morning! I think we are going to have an interesting (read overtired!) weekend in front of us!
Thinking of you Bron, I hope time passes quickly for you when you need it to so badly. Good luck with the sleep plan. I can never find a sharpie when I need one which is often lately, I do love a sharpie too. Take good care x
Sharpies! LOL. Yep, very grateful for Sharpies.
Hope Pollyanna returns and you start to breathe easy again soon.
Leanne @ Deep Fried Fruit
I think the combination of long holidays and new routines is a real killer sometimes. Some days it's all I can do to just struggle through until bedtime.
A few decent sleeps (fingers crossed for you) and routines worked out, and you'll be through to the other side.
Sharpies rule! xx
I am soooo with you on this one this week. Brutal is the best word to describe new sleep plans. Just think, you're one step ahead of me - I have no plan now! Hang in there, this too will pass. Gin.
I total get your time thing. Most parts of parenting I want to savour and absorb, therefore want time to slow down...others I just want to be done with and want time to hurry up. Basically...I want my cake and eat it all too. :)))
Oh and yes...a big cheers to Sharpies!!!
xx
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