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26.10.12

The beat of my drum



Two brilliant bloggers have raised me up this week. That's me at the top of the mountain, waving hello and beating my drum.

Al's post over at the Fibro about making time to write really struck a chord with me. Not the bit about feeling like I should be mothering 24/7 and not doing stuff for myself. I don't feel like that at all. I reckon I give my kids plenty and the rest is up to them while I get on with other stuff.

No, the bit that did it for me was the "if you have stories to write, then write them."

My whole life there have been stories bubbling inside me, like a fragrant hot pot (or a cauldron, depending on what you think of me!). I've never 'had a book' in me, but making pictures with words is what my head does every day. If you're with me and we're chatting, I'll be weaving language in a way that probably sounds a bit odd, but the need to create something special with words means I just don't quite talk like most people. There is poetry in every moment and my mouth wants to loll it around and suck it away.

Then I read Kootoyoo's post for justb about marching to the beat of your own drum, and I confessed that I often forget to stop and listen to my own drum's rhythm. Finding the quiet we need to hear our drum can be so difficult. It's pretty much impossible when life is good and you're happy and you're madly dancing to everyone else's beat.

But take a moment, every day. To be still and calm and simply listen. It's easy to block out the noise around you because beautiful music is playing within in you. Can you hear the marching band?

I marched with my band in February this year and I've been marching ever since. Now that I'm 'a writer' and I get to 'write for a living' (I still can't remove the inverted commas, sorry, not yet), I feel like I'm finally getting paid to be me. I feel purposeful and delighted and whole and I've silenced a yearning that has always been inside me, so quiet that I could barely hear it. 

That yearning was the beat of my drum. It's the best rhythm I've ever danced to and it's been inside me all along. 

I'm so glad I paused to listen. I'm so glad that I'm writing my story.



Can you hear your drum?





24 comments:

Lipgloss Mumma said...

I know I need to listen.
Can I apply this advice to my latest blog post? xx

Kelly Exeter said...

I am seeing more and more people marching to the beat of their own drum and every new person that does something remarkable like you did in Feb B empowers the next person to take the jump themselves. And it makes the world just that much of a better place I reckon!

Elisa {With Grace and Eve} said...

Love this! Nice timing too.. I've been asking myself this week, "what makes your heart sing?" xx

Megan Blandford said...

LOVE!

Giving Back Girl said...

Beautiful post, you can hear your energy and determination. Don't lose it.

Brenda @ Mira Narnie said...

lovely, awesome brilliant, wonderful super dooper fantastic! all those words that mean i love what you are doing Bron, because if you love your work you don't really work a day in your life! You are doing what most of us dream of.,...a job we were meant to do. March ahead and be proud! happy days xx

Carli said...

I loved Al's post. And I'm glad you're writing your story too x

Mrs Smith said...

Kootoyooo's post did exactly the same thing for me. I have stories to write and made up words and an utter love of language, but I don't make any time to write. My stories are left to get washed away in procrastination and self-consciousness. I would love to be a prfofessional writer. How did you make it happen? Other than simply write, of course.

Sam Stone (A Life on Venus) said...

I am definitely on the way - hopefully!
Starting my own blog, doing a writing course...I am starting to hear the drum, it may be off key but I hear it.

Mandy Ferry said...

I can't hear the drums over the bloody tamborines. :)

allison tait said...

Thanks for the shout-out B. There are lots of things that stand between us and writing - not just kids, expectations and obstacles of all kinds. Getting past them, like you're doing is inspiring!

Naturally Carol said...

Written beautifully by your 'writer' self!

Donna said...

Just like that clever sister of yours, you always know the right thing to write Bron.

I'll admit I'm really struggling to hear the beat of my drum, or find a rhythm that I feel in sync too at the moment when it comes to words. Perhaps I just need to make some time to be still, to ponder, and see what comes. I know what it is I am doing now just doesn't feel like its working, and only I can change that. And I will x

Megan.K. said...

You need to edit this post Bron and remove those inverted commas! You do not need them at all, you never did.
xxx

2012 has been so loud It has all but drowned out my little drum. I almost forget what it sounds like... But surely I will hear a faint sound of it in the wind again. Soon, I hope. Thank you for this post.

Alisa : Ink Caravan said...

There are sooo many people that admire your 'writer' self and nod along with what you're saying in your wonderful poetic lolling - That definately makes you a writer Bron!! Big time, san inverted commas. x

G said...

thank you so much for writing this, it was exactly what I needed to read. I feel like I'm getting better and better at listening to my inner drum and arranging life to its rhythm.

xx

Nikki @ Styling You said...

I stopped to listen to my drums 4.5 years ago and I'm so glad I did. I wonder why it took me so long but so glad I did. x

Liz@LastChanceTraining said...

Thanks so much for your comment on my blog - honoured that you visited. I'm learning to march to the beat of my own drum - except the path is so different to what I actually envisioned way back when. However, I'm not going to ever stop writing (or blogging) - too much fun!

tahlia @ the parenting files said...

I love this Bron! It is so true what you say to stop and listen. This post reminded me of the movie 'August march' which tells a story about a boy who is inspired by music and empowered to 'listen' to the music around him. Love these words xoxo

heartmama.net said...

Beautiful! Your words are so beautifully strung together and your marching band is so wonderful to listen to. I too am glad you have found your story. I feel the same... I had never considered that I could be paid to write, but when I finally accepted that I am, I realised that this really is what I am meant to do.
X

Seana said...

So true, and I must dash over to JustB to read that post. I read Al's and that very day a friend was talking about writing, referred her immediately to the Fibro.

I feel I am living my life to the beat of my own drum, but NOT that I have found a blog voice that is true to me, far from it. Other writing yes, but not on the blogs... actually blogs is the problem, I need to have one blog and silence the chatter a bit to find my bloggy voice. Inspiration is all around!

rhon said...

What an incredible post. I think that just now at 31 I am finally starting to hear my own drum. It has taken me some time to come into my own, I suppose. I have tons of stories and ideas inside of me and never quite find the time to get them out. I am inspired by your post and Allison's as well to just make some time. Ten minutes a day...

xx.

Kymmie said...

So absolutely perfect bron. My drum has been outnumbered by the recorders in this house and I can't think to save myself. Hopefully Ivan listen to that drum a little better. I really love that rhythm! Xx

heartmama.net said...

What incredible ideas! I loved the nice. Just gorgeous,

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